Dated - April 23, 2020
Considering my last post was on 24 November 2019. Lots of water has passed below Ganges, Yamuna and all the rivers worldwide in these five months. Looking back with perfect hindsight of 6/6, there was no inkling whatsover when I penned down my last post, (figuratively) that it will be total chaos in the future.
So much has happended that sometimes I have to pinch myself to ensure that this is all real. Not even in my wild dreams or should I say nightmares I had thought that story of streotypical doomsday movie will be played out in real life. But Corona Virus is a nightmarish reality that has affected whole world right now.
The other thing which is also totaly surreal is that I have managed to switch job afterall. This developement took a few years in making and on more than one occation I came very close to switch last year. But somehow there are always some obstacles.
Life is moving so fast that its difficult to catch up. But now the tables are turned. My eternal grieveances regarding lack to time to do anything and the frusturation which was building up is finished now. Apart from a minor setback of restricted inside homes due to Lockdown in effect, rest everything is perfect. Now its not a question of lack of time or energy anymore. Now the real challenge begins which will test the focus and willpower more than ever.
Corona Virus :
Enough has been already said about Corona Virus with no end in sight in near future. This is so unprecedented that we dont even know how to react. Probably its too soon to form an impression but what could have been a rejuvating sabbatical has turned into anxiety filled wait full of uncertainities. Its almost like a sword is hanging over eveyone head.
I have had a double whammy as this uncertainity is coupled with job related uncertainity too as I'm between jobs. Considering how prone I'm for additional and sometimes non required stress. I have been handling myself remarkably well. I've been trying and to a certain extent succedding in keeping myself busy in some productive works which is the key to beating this stress really. In view of limitations in place on physical movement due to lockdown imposed, I'm still trying to keep myself as busy as possible.
I'm ensuring that I dont waste extra time available in sleeping or binge watching on internet. Though sometimes I indulge myself in both the activities. But side by side I also had this realization that shortage of time is not the only reason which was stopping me from achieving my targets. I have been far too lethargic with my progress now that I have ample of time. Its a wakeup call for me that I need to pull back myself. My only excuse if the stress due to uncertainity but ultimately keeping myself busy is the only solution to beat this uncertainity.
To put things into perspective, it took me aound 20-25 days of lockdown to commense reading books which has been one of my really consistent hobby and around 30 days to start writing. I have really stopped these activites since last six months due to stress and hectic schedule in my last job.
As I said earlier, The COVID 19 is very much far from over at this stage and we are still in the middle of this experience. Once this is over, then only I can conclude over the effect of this situation in totality.
Job :
I have been obsessesd about my job. Majority of my blog post for last few years are centred on my progress or lack of it in finding new job. Gradually I have been coming out of vicious circle. Also I'm mentally preparing myself to take the ultimate plunge of entrepreneurship.
With that ulitmate aim in my mind. The problem becomes bearable in last job also. And then thankfully I was successfull in coming out of that toxic environment. I'm a firm believer that such opportunites offer a clean slate to all of us. Its a second chance to put right the wrong persception formed about you in your last inning. My experince in my last job shows that its very difficult to fight a negative perception about you. Having passion is certain prerequisive for successfull job and in last few years I'm consistantly excited about Robotics and simulation. For a self taught person like me, The road ahead still looks tough and its very difficutl to find a good learning resource coupled with limiation of having a good laptop. But I'm tyring to make slow and steady progress. Hopefully the problem of my sytem (laptop) will be gone in next few days.
PS : updated on 14th May. The problem regarding laptop is solved now and I have more than enough in terms of laptop
Bucket list :
I was a big supported of having a bucket list. I believe that having well defined goals is the first step towards meaningfull and successfull life. However from past few years; I was not able to made much headway inspite of trying my best. At one point of time, it looks like that I'm using this so called bucket list like a crutch. A consolation price which gives me solace of moving even though I remain as far from my target as ever. Interestinglly one of the major target (participating in Airtel Half Marathon) was acoomplished last year when I had not made any bucket list whatsoever. Also my ever present target of job change was also accomplished this year without any bucket list. I know it defies any kind of logic and the conventional wisdom says that how can you acheive something without aiming for it first but it happens in my case. Probably all the efforts made by me in the yesteryears do played a role.
Howevever I'm not going to make the Bucket list again this year but its important to keep the long terms aims in mind even if subconsciously so.
Will Power / Focus :
In my last job which I was doing as recently as few months ago, I was a very firm believer that only having more free time at my disposal will not magically solve all the problems. The key is how to utilize that time judiciously. Its absolutely imperative to maintain a focus on what all you want to acheive. Perhaps the previously discussed topic of goals will come in handy here.As the clear concise goals will help is keeping the mind focussed. Rather than lofty goals, the immediate short terms targets on daily basis are much more usefull in this regards.
The seocnd main goal that is equally important is to identify the biggest culprit that hinders these goals. The feeling of guilt is a very good indicator for these habits. Hence relying to this feeling of shame and guilty, I can safety conclude that I have problem with watching content on You-tube that I should not watch at all. We are living in age where entertaining content is alway available for all to consume. Combined with ever falling datapack price and we got one lethal and viciious combo that is very difficult to resit. And resist I must if I have any chance of making it successfull.
Gradually I'm coming to terms with this new routine of working from home and to adjust my working hours with spain as my company head office is in Spain. Side by side there is constant endeavour noot to losse sight of my ultiamate objective and strive on moving towards the same, One small step at a time.
Considering my last post was on 24 November 2019. Lots of water has passed below Ganges, Yamuna and all the rivers worldwide in these five months. Looking back with perfect hindsight of 6/6, there was no inkling whatsover when I penned down my last post, (figuratively) that it will be total chaos in the future.
So much has happended that sometimes I have to pinch myself to ensure that this is all real. Not even in my wild dreams or should I say nightmares I had thought that story of streotypical doomsday movie will be played out in real life. But Corona Virus is a nightmarish reality that has affected whole world right now.
The other thing which is also totaly surreal is that I have managed to switch job afterall. This developement took a few years in making and on more than one occation I came very close to switch last year. But somehow there are always some obstacles.
Life is moving so fast that its difficult to catch up. But now the tables are turned. My eternal grieveances regarding lack to time to do anything and the frusturation which was building up is finished now. Apart from a minor setback of restricted inside homes due to Lockdown in effect, rest everything is perfect. Now its not a question of lack of time or energy anymore. Now the real challenge begins which will test the focus and willpower more than ever.
Corona Virus :
Enough has been already said about Corona Virus with no end in sight in near future. This is so unprecedented that we dont even know how to react. Probably its too soon to form an impression but what could have been a rejuvating sabbatical has turned into anxiety filled wait full of uncertainities. Its almost like a sword is hanging over eveyone head.
I have had a double whammy as this uncertainity is coupled with job related uncertainity too as I'm between jobs. Considering how prone I'm for additional and sometimes non required stress. I have been handling myself remarkably well. I've been trying and to a certain extent succedding in keeping myself busy in some productive works which is the key to beating this stress really. In view of limitations in place on physical movement due to lockdown imposed, I'm still trying to keep myself as busy as possible.
I'm ensuring that I dont waste extra time available in sleeping or binge watching on internet. Though sometimes I indulge myself in both the activities. But side by side I also had this realization that shortage of time is not the only reason which was stopping me from achieving my targets. I have been far too lethargic with my progress now that I have ample of time. Its a wakeup call for me that I need to pull back myself. My only excuse if the stress due to uncertainity but ultimately keeping myself busy is the only solution to beat this uncertainity.
To put things into perspective, it took me aound 20-25 days of lockdown to commense reading books which has been one of my really consistent hobby and around 30 days to start writing. I have really stopped these activites since last six months due to stress and hectic schedule in my last job.
As I said earlier, The COVID 19 is very much far from over at this stage and we are still in the middle of this experience. Once this is over, then only I can conclude over the effect of this situation in totality.
Job :
I have been obsessesd about my job. Majority of my blog post for last few years are centred on my progress or lack of it in finding new job. Gradually I have been coming out of vicious circle. Also I'm mentally preparing myself to take the ultimate plunge of entrepreneurship.
With that ulitmate aim in my mind. The problem becomes bearable in last job also. And then thankfully I was successfull in coming out of that toxic environment. I'm a firm believer that such opportunites offer a clean slate to all of us. Its a second chance to put right the wrong persception formed about you in your last inning. My experince in my last job shows that its very difficult to fight a negative perception about you. Having passion is certain prerequisive for successfull job and in last few years I'm consistantly excited about Robotics and simulation. For a self taught person like me, The road ahead still looks tough and its very difficutl to find a good learning resource coupled with limiation of having a good laptop. But I'm tyring to make slow and steady progress. Hopefully the problem of my sytem (laptop) will be gone in next few days.
PS : updated on 14th May. The problem regarding laptop is solved now and I have more than enough in terms of laptop
Bucket list :
I was a big supported of having a bucket list. I believe that having well defined goals is the first step towards meaningfull and successfull life. However from past few years; I was not able to made much headway inspite of trying my best. At one point of time, it looks like that I'm using this so called bucket list like a crutch. A consolation price which gives me solace of moving even though I remain as far from my target as ever. Interestinglly one of the major target (participating in Airtel Half Marathon) was acoomplished last year when I had not made any bucket list whatsoever. Also my ever present target of job change was also accomplished this year without any bucket list. I know it defies any kind of logic and the conventional wisdom says that how can you acheive something without aiming for it first but it happens in my case. Probably all the efforts made by me in the yesteryears do played a role.
Howevever I'm not going to make the Bucket list again this year but its important to keep the long terms aims in mind even if subconsciously so.
Will Power / Focus :
In my last job which I was doing as recently as few months ago, I was a very firm believer that only having more free time at my disposal will not magically solve all the problems. The key is how to utilize that time judiciously. Its absolutely imperative to maintain a focus on what all you want to acheive. Perhaps the previously discussed topic of goals will come in handy here.As the clear concise goals will help is keeping the mind focussed. Rather than lofty goals, the immediate short terms targets on daily basis are much more usefull in this regards.
The seocnd main goal that is equally important is to identify the biggest culprit that hinders these goals. The feeling of guilt is a very good indicator for these habits. Hence relying to this feeling of shame and guilty, I can safety conclude that I have problem with watching content on You-tube that I should not watch at all. We are living in age where entertaining content is alway available for all to consume. Combined with ever falling datapack price and we got one lethal and viciious combo that is very difficult to resit. And resist I must if I have any chance of making it successfull.
Gradually I'm coming to terms with this new routine of working from home and to adjust my working hours with spain as my company head office is in Spain. Side by side there is constant endeavour noot to losse sight of my ultiamate objective and strive on moving towards the same, One small step at a time.
